Farewell 2007
posted in General |It’s been a long windy road filled with much ups and downs at every turn. So how has 2007 been for me? Eventful! We all have stories to tell but some are better left unsaid, so I’ll spare the details of the bad and focus more on the good. (I’ll try…)
It was a long two and a half years and I finally completed my Masters despite much turbulence on the work front. You may not be able to fully understand this but the gist is, when people are insecure, they can be so vicious that they’ll work so hard to take you down by constantly poisoning others with sobbingly pitiful stories. They say that there are two sides to a coin, but if you are “giving” enough, you will win people over. Me on the other hand, don’t bother enough. So I lose the game. But as I reflect on this, I come to realise that I have everything to gain for this experience made me more aware and thankful that those gutsy spineless people were not in my list of acquaintances, much less friends. Among all that, I made some really good friends. Friends who stood by me, believed in me and friends who constantly bring positivity and charm to this life that we so take for granted. And I thank you for that. So, at the end of it, I survived the tempest, graduated top three of my class, together with the person I am so thankful for standing by me all this while, taking top spot. Congratulations to you, my dearest friend!
I’m a freak for quality and efficiency. My biggest weakness is my expectation of others to perform, especially those who have the potential but are somehow just not able to unleash it (though they can when they feel like it). I thought about this and came up with a few theories. Age, maturity, experience, professionalism and self-belief or confidence. Age, maturity and experience seem like a package but I would not generalise for I know of many people of the same age having a higher level of maturity and sense of responsibility. I know the environment has changed from when I was at that age. I worked hard, struggled from the bottom and today I am managing a decent career. The journey taught me many important things. The people I met, the mistakes I made and the achievements I accomplished. The digital age has made things a lot easier for us. Many tasks are automated and just by looking around, fun are also digitised with the plethora of mobile devices taking centre-stage. It’s not as physical anymore so I think the generation today are softer and more sensitive. You can’t be too forward with your thoughts, you’ll be labelled as strict and untactful. You need to lower your expectations or you will appear pushy and impatient. I hate managing people (some people) because once they feel you are on their case, no matter what you do, you just won’t cut it. Professionalism? Non-existent! You need to mollycoddle people to be in their good books. You need to constantly filter your words so not to offend them. Even when you are pushed to the limits, you need to smile, take a deep breath and couch your words the best way you can. But that’s just not me! So I let go. I stay in my hole and I focus on my needs and my future. Working people need to have more self-confidence. The ability to stand firm on one’s feet and not be swayed by those who overpowers and often want to be in control. But hey,where my career is concerned, I think I’m going the right direction and 2007 has certainly been a big part of my growth. I refuse to stop learning and I take the positives from all all my experiences, good or bad. So thank you for contributing to my growth and for the invaluable life lessons. I am truly, sincerely grateful.
On a personal note, I caught two of my favourite bands - Megadeth and Dio/Black Sabbath and of course Christina Aguilera! That was awesome! I wish Iron Maiden would come soon. There are rumours that LAMC will bring them here in 2008. PRAY!
I’m still getting the stick from my family to settle down and have kids but that’s not happening anytime soon. And I don’t know when. Maybe never. Love is a complex thing. The whole process of it can be quite testing. Once you have love, you need to keep feeding it so it will grow, like the Tamagotchi. You start taking love for granted, it will decline and slowly wilt away. Relationship and companionship are two different things. I want to be in a relationship that’s built by a love that is ever growing. I’m a physical person so touch is important to me. I have seen many couples walking away from each other and hardly looking at each other at dinner. Some actually talk but are facing away from each other. Some husbands are far in front of their wives. I’m not sure if the husband is walking too fast or if the wife prefers him to be a few metres ahead. But it’s sad, at least in my opinion. These exact two people were so much in love that they can’t stand being apart, but today, they prefer to be apart, physically but remain in the relationship or companionship for reasons I may never understand. Question is, how much love should you have to remain in a relationship? What if you start to sweep arguments or issues under the carpet and are just not able to address them? What if you have been in a relationship for such a long time that familiarity takes over and nothing else matters? How do you repair these things? Where is the cutoff point? Am i making any sense here?
I like the trademarked phrase in friendster “It’s complicated TM“! Simple yet very meaningful. It’s like I’m in a relationship but I wanna get out but I can’t cos there’s still love so I’m hoping for a better tomorrow and at the same time wish to meet someone else but if I do that, I might jeopardise the relationship…. and it goes on and on. See, simple! LOL.
This must be my longest post ever! So much for focusing on the positives eh. Hey, this is my blog so I’m entitled! I wanna close 2007 by saying these few things.
1. Those who think I’m bad, I’m truly sorry. I never meant to hurt anyone or cause any discomfort. You have taught me a plenty and I bear no grudges against you. I asked to be forgiven and nothing more.
2. Those who think I’m cool, thank you for being around and I apologise if I had whined too much. You are a gem and we need more people like you to make this world a better place. Thank you for spreading so much love, care and positive energy. I would not have remained sane without you all.
3. To everybody else, thank you for all your contributions in my daily observations. I have learnt much about life through your gestures, speech and actions.
4. To the world, I pray for peace and good health for all living things. I pray for animal abuse to stop. Please stop buying fur and products we can do without. If YOU don’t demand for it, the suffering will stop too. I pray for men to stop killing men and using religion as the reason for we all know it’s politics that’s driving the killing.
5. Stop global warming for the benefit of our future generations. It’s not difficult. Practice conservation. Do simple stuff each day to conserve energy and make it a part of your daily routine. YOU CAN make a difference.
Goodbye 2007 and Hello 2008! Happy New Year to all.
God Bless!
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